Last week, Brandi wrote about her first session of marriage counseling. She was saying how day to day, her anxiety is usually really low, but her husband's his high. And how they are working with each other through those differences.
I was envious when I read that her anxiety is really low.
On a good day, mine is around a 6 or a 7. I told her that Chris was like her with low anxiety, with his anxiety level maybe reaching a 2 if he has to find the remote.
He is always in the same mood and talks in the same tone. Always. Olive could be smearing shit on the wall and he is talking like he is in a job interview, while making eggs, and checking his phone.
Then there is me... and my baseline is a 6 on a good day. I have to do everything because I am the only one who can do it the right way. And then I get mad because no one will help me. And then I worry about how much I need to do. Then I get pissy because I can't just say no. And it's a never ending circle... with myself.
My goal for the next month is to STOP. Let shit go. Say NO. Let the house be a Looney Bin. Let Olive pick up Haven's poop out of the toilet. Just calm the crazy, a tad.
On Friday I posted about how we are forfeiting our deposit by leaving this house before the end of our lease. I was debating on what level of a deep clean I was going to do on the house considering we are not getting back any money.
Everyone told me not to clean. To pack. To pick up the house. To not deep clean the baseboards.
Well, the crazy train stopped here on Saturday. And with a fever and body aches, I pulled the EFFING weeds in the alley. The alley that is behind our fence in the backyard. The alley that only the trash man sees on Monday mornings. I was out there pulling the weeds because seeing them made me anxious.
Send some Xanax and booze. I am about to start my 30 days of not giving two shits. :)
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Make it a great Monday!!